Nothing is better than going back to church and realizing that everything fits. I stopped going to church because of the judgemental tendencies and happenings there. Tonight when I went back it was so real and there was so much love for my God in that room! I stood amazed in His presence. With all that has happened recently I feel like God is molding this masterpiece and at first you look at it and you're like "how is this going to turn out?" and He tells you to be patient and so you are and then it starts to become the most beautiful work of art that you have ever laid your eyes on. The sermon that Josh spoke tonight felt like it was tailored for me. He gave the illustration that your life is like a yard stick, what you are here on Earth is 1cm, and the remaining 35cm are Eternity. Work, sow, and till for God now and reap the benefits later. Josh also spoke about how easy it is to fall back into sin when the enemy says "remember how fun that was? let's do that again," and that is just so crazy to me right now because I had that moment last night where I knew Satan was saying "this is what you love doing, go ahead," and as I was contemplating it I felt that pull from the Holy Spirit saying "don't do that, we've moved past that" and I contemplated for a long while but I failed. So to hear that tonight has given me a new strength and a new way to take on those skeletons in my closet. Also being back in the youth tonight was like being the prodigal son, although I have been gone and messed up I was received back with happiness and forgiveness...thank you Lord for this blessing, amen.
Always Smile :)
C'est moi (:
- Kortnee
- I'm a senior in high school. I'm really confident. Out of my friends I'm always the joker. I give really good advice and I think it's because I never sugarcoat anything. I have an extraordinary spirit accompanied by a pretty bad temper sometimes. I'm extremely observant. I think quickly and independently. I'm only careful or cautious when it involves someone else and their well being. Anything that gets my adrenaline pumping is my weakness. I've learned to relax because when I freak out I do everything hastily. I'm a big time romantic. I am very loving and caring but I usually don't show it that often. I am very loquacious and love meeting people. I'm spew sarcism almost 24/7 so don't get offended! I believe in Jesus Christ and God's promise, this probably should have been first but I'm getting there. I am a vegetarian and I love animals but I'm definitely not PETA. I grew up in the country but mostly I am a city girl and I love the fast pace that cities offer. I want to work in fashion, deadlines and pressure excite me, I love it. I think that everyone is beautiful when they smile; Smiling means the world to me :)
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
How Great is MY God?
Tomorrow I will have been a Christian for 2 years! Two years ago at Falls Creek I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and my Savior and He has carried me through some hard times. There are times that I feel very close to Him but for the majority of time I neglect our relationship. I have started praying again but I'm still on one-way communication because I expect Him to hear me and to listen and be still while I go on and on and never take the time to be silent and hear what He has to say. Near the end of my junior year, I asked God to send someone to me that would help me grow in my walk and I was thinking more along the lines of an accountability partner but I have been blessed to receive something much greater. I talk to this person openly about God and never feel uncomfortable which is almost a 360 degree turn from where I was.
I never would have dreamed that God would send someone so insightful that is truly concerned and that truly cares about my relationship with God and I surely haven't experienced being able to talk about my love for God openly and frequently for lengthy amounts of time. So I have a lot to be thankful for. Plus everything is going great right now! This summer has proven to be most enjoyable (:
On June 4th, I left for leadership camp and it was pretty great. I flipped a golf cart but that's perfectly fine! No harm done! I came home Tuesday, June 9th, and I've just been relaxing since I got back. Many college visits are underway and a definite major choice needs to be secured soon! Other than that, I have 4 events to plan and help organize for school and myself and I am steadily working on my Girl Scout Gold Award! It's an exciting experience. I love the pressure of it all combined with AP summer reading, call me crazy, but I'm in love with these types of things!
Today I'm having a "coffee catch up" with my good friend Stephanie :) and earlier I helped my mom make a 'Triple Chocolate Chip Fudge Cake with Homemade Cream Cheese Icing' and let me tell you it's the most delicious thing I've ever tasted! Two days ago, we made homemade vanilla ice cream...goodness it was the best! So now I need to go prepare for the rest of the day. Update soon!
Always smiling :)
This person told me that:
"It is so beautiful to praise Him through doubts and uncertainties"
"I think you're ready for anything. Well you aren't but Christ is, and He is with you."
"be alone. and silent. and just talk with Him. not just to Him. know that you are nothing."
"I think you're ready for anything. Well you aren't but Christ is, and He is with you."
"be alone. and silent. and just talk with Him. not just to Him. know that you are nothing."
I never would have dreamed that God would send someone so insightful that is truly concerned and that truly cares about my relationship with God and I surely haven't experienced being able to talk about my love for God openly and frequently for lengthy amounts of time. So I have a lot to be thankful for. Plus everything is going great right now! This summer has proven to be most enjoyable (:
On June 4th, I left for leadership camp and it was pretty great. I flipped a golf cart but that's perfectly fine! No harm done! I came home Tuesday, June 9th, and I've just been relaxing since I got back. Many college visits are underway and a definite major choice needs to be secured soon! Other than that, I have 4 events to plan and help organize for school and myself and I am steadily working on my Girl Scout Gold Award! It's an exciting experience. I love the pressure of it all combined with AP summer reading, call me crazy, but I'm in love with these types of things!
Today I'm having a "coffee catch up" with my good friend Stephanie :) and earlier I helped my mom make a 'Triple Chocolate Chip Fudge Cake with Homemade Cream Cheese Icing' and let me tell you it's the most delicious thing I've ever tasted! Two days ago, we made homemade vanilla ice cream...goodness it was the best! So now I need to go prepare for the rest of the day. Update soon!
Always smiling :)
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